Actors don't choose

When I was in college, it was evident who were the people that wanted careers as professional actors and did it as a hobby. A friend of mine, who went to a different college and considering being a professional actor, was once told by a professor: "If there is anything else that could make you happy, do that." It's blunt, but it makes sense to me. It's that same thing idea of how organic chemistry classes are used to weed out pre-med students-I was one of the weird ones who took organic chemistry because I was interested in the subject but knew I didn't want to be a scientist.

I spend a massive amount of time thinking about my career--probably to a level that is unhealthy. I can't help it. I was born into a family of workaholics. I also am a freelancer, which means I'm constantly looking for work and how to further myself to accomplish my goals.

I was recently approached about the idea of going on a tour with a show and...Money wise it would be amazing. Travel wise, it could be a fantastic opportunity. I'm not sure how I'd handle the constant lack of sleep but I'd get used to it.

My real concern is not acting for a full year. I've never done that. I've always done at least one show a year if not more. If I don't act after awhile my soul starts to ache and I feel it physically in my body, I think that's what it must feel like to be going through life and not doing what you're supposed to be doing. Recently, the happiest I've been is when I've been taking acting lessons for film.

I think there are certain careers that people are called into: teachers, doctors, and nurses to name a few. Acting is one of those. people who choose to have a career as an actor don't do it for the fame and money. We do it because we cannot imagine anything other life. Of course there are those who just fall into it and that's perfectly fine--I'm looking at you Hugh Grant.

I don't have answers. I'm in my twenties. I'm figuring it out.